Smokie

exhaustion

2002-06-23T12:04:55Z

worked for 6 and a half hours today, thats 390 minutes!!! i am totally exhausted from having to stand up for that long, plus i have a huge headache from serving total idiots of customers. then mum and the sister dragged me down to melbourne central. a very, very long day. so i've decided not to go to school tomorrow. i wont miss out on much, half the grade and heaps of teachers have gone to central australia so i dont think we'll be doing much work. plus it will be the only day for the next week i can sleep in, working the same hours next weekend. *sighs* yea i worked 5 and a half hours yesterday aswell. i was actually contemplating stabbing myself with the hash brown tongs or burning myself in the fry vat just to get out of work early. and yesterday, the evil manager was there the whole day. words cannot describe her evilness. once she fully abused me just because i put the fries in the wrong bin, and another time just because i spilt a drop of milk on the floor.
oh well, i get paid for it all.
torture + pain + exhaustion = $$$. is it worth it?
stems b'day next week, shes 16!
omg which reminds me, last night it was susannahs b'day party and adrian invited kath, then sim and andrea invited themselves somehow .. which stem and me agreed was so rude. so neway i went with mum to drop the sister off at the party cos i had nothing else to do and i was in my pj's and when we got there stem was there with kath. how rude, firstly for stem just tagging along after she agreed it was rude and secondly cos they didnt invite me! :'( sadness ... nobody luvs me.
finishing on a happier note, i am going to commence my plot in pursuading my dad to help pay for a horse this weekend. wish me luck.
mwxoxo

shis stranje

2002-06-13T10:23:59Z

the sister has gone mad, she's running around the house with a can of oil or something and spraying it on all the door hinges whilst yellling 'no more squeaky doors!'.. its kinda weird.
24 days till the grinspoon concert!
note- remember to take horse studies home and DO IT .. everyone else in the class has sent their assignments off on time and finished all the modules, i've skipped one module, haven't finished any and haven't even started the assignment. shit

cheipeyti

2002-06-12T23:39:12Z

Divinity exists at the crest of the highest mountain, shrouded in a film of mist, cloaked in secrets and legend. Watching over the mediocre beings of the dell, perched ‘pon a throne of paled silver. Often heard whispers and prayers devoted to him, but ignored. None shall disrupt his tranquillity. Absent-minded God, they say, does not deserve the title. Shakes feathered poll as sparks flicker in opaque orbs. Royal deity extends branch’s, downed with silken tresses of crimson and mauve. Mammoth being circles temple, sinister spheres studying intricate patterns inscribed ‘pon golden walls. Plumage scatters when a nod recalls the time ‘they’ had come. Worship and respect as they stood before him, an offering of gifts and devotion. Sacrificed entire lives to produce a shrine fit for a God, a divine being. Merely brushed them away when the labour was through, no use, no need. Chuckle emitted, soaring to peak holy crown. A messenger, his only use, a courier to those superior to him. Immortal creature, chortles as promise is recalled. Complete duties and be rewarded. Only reason for life, forced use it for his own contentment.

~ Smokie …

i wrote this at the start of last year. its about a pheonix who is the messenger to the gods .. its kind of strange, but it makes sense to me lol.

drool

2002-06-12T12:16:59Z

which Episode II character are you?

Anakin Skywalker - jedi apprentice. Like Anakin, you know your morals and usually always stick to the rules. However, stray away from those who know best and you may become naiive to what anybody tells you. Stay with those whom you trust and have always been your friends. Otherwise, you may find yourself being manipulated by outside parties.

ok then

2002-06-12T12:02:11Z

001.) Name?

Amy

002.) Current location?

Behind my desk, in my room, somewhere in Australia

003.) Birthplace?

Melbourne, Australia

004.) Birthday?

March 21

005.) Siblings and ages?

Karli - 12

006.) Pets(names)?

Dog - copper

Cat - doris

Mouse - houdini

Budgie - tingle

to those who haven't been to my house for a little while - the rest have died

007.) Who is your absolute one best friend?

I got a few. They all have their special sorta bits.

008.) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

Nope

009.) If yes, how long have you been together?
n/a

010.) If no, why not?

Things tend to die if they get to close to me. Its for the safety of all.

011.) Religious affiliation?

Pelicanist

012.) Who is your favorite person to talk to online?

Kath!

013.) Who is your role model?

Anyone who is gorgeous, smart and incredibly rich. Shall be me, someday.

014.) What is your favorite color?

This blue

015.) What is your favorite drink?

Sprite

016.) What is your favorite fast food restaurant?

McDonalds. Even though i work there, which people would think would turn me off it completely.

017.) What is your fondest memory of high school?
Its not over yet, and there had better be some good times ahead or whats the point of it all.

018.) What is your worst memory of high school?

So far, most of them

019.) What is the best memory of your friends?

When we won at volleyball. It was great.

020.) Favorite class?

Horse studies. Bludge

021.) Least favorite class?

Science

022.) Favorite teacher?

mrs lloyd, vis com.

023.) Least favorite teacher?

mr rennie. science

024.) Who do you trust the most?

er .. probably natalie

025.) What's the craziest thing you've ever done ?

Decide to come to earth

026.) What's the craziest thing you've ever WANTED to do?:

Jump off a freeway bridge and try to land on a semi truck trailor and not die.

027.) Why didn't you do it?

Because I'm not an idiot.

028.) Give a brief, physical description of yourself?

165cm. Brown hair, medium length. Hazel eyes. Fit but i eat alot of crap. Hair usually straight (not natural .. come to think of it i don't know what my hair would look like if i didn't use the straightener, hair dryer and a tub of product everday)

029.) What kind of music do you listen to?

alternativ, soft metal, r&b, rap

030.) What are you afraid of?

spiders, ticket inspectors and my cat

031.) Do you look like anyone famous?

hrm, no don't think so .

032.) What famous person do you wish you looked like?

uh any of the gorgeous ones

033.) Describe your personality?

very moody, shy at times but sometimes completely the opposite. i can be very loud and i've got a good sense of humour

034.) Have you ever gone off on somebody?

hell yeah

035.) What are you most proud of about yourself?

i can horse ride good

036.) What was the hardest thing you've ever done?

kept going

037.) What is your dream job?

breeding spanish arabians in europe

038.) What is your favorite animal?

horse

039.) If you could have one thing in the world, what would it be?

a horse! god damnit

040.) If you could have one PERSON in the world, who would it be?

hayden christensen

041.) Where do you work?

maccas

042.) Do you show your emotions or hide them?

both

043.) Have you ever made up people to show off?

my imaginary friends ran away

044.) What do you regret most?

i regret it all

045.) Where do you want to visit?

america

046.) Who do you wish lived next door?

hayden christensen

047.) Spend one hour with anyone right now, who would it be?

hayden, dah

048.) Why?

gee i wonder why

049.) What song describes you?

wasting my time by default. (well not really its on the radio rite now)

050.) Favorite quote ?

vaya cogerse

053.) Do you play any sports?

i horse ride

054.) If yes, are you good at it?

hell yeah

055.) What is your favorite movie?

star wars II - attack of the clones. *drool*

056.) What is your favorite quote from that movie?

anything said by yoda

057.) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?

amy's life

058.) Have you ever been kissed?

yes

059.) Have you ever done drugs/alcohol?

no and a bit

060.) Been on Stage?

a little

061.) Been in a car accident?

as a matter of fact yes, nothin serious though

062.) Hiked a mountain?

a little one .. well it was a large hill

063.) Taken a bath?

i indulge myself with candles, bath bombs, scrubs and steam at least once a week

064.) Seen the Eiffel tower?

nah

065.) What is your life philosophy?

eat as much as you can, you can always exersice tomorow
066.) Type of sandwich?

philly and avocado

067.) Favorite Instrument?

piano

068.) Do you play any instruments?

used to

069.) If you were Tarzan, who would be your Jane?

gosh

070.) The way things were or the way things are?

the way things are. brilliant song

071.) Ever acted idiotic, your friends won't let you forget about it?

only alot
072.) What does your name mean?

to be loved

073.) Nicknames?

smokie

074.) Alias?

not really

075.) One pillow or two?

four and a cushion

076.) Fave book?

the ship of magic series

077.) Dream car?

porche boxter

078.) Squint really hard, does your car look like your dream car?

i don't have one

079.) What words do you overuse?

all of them, i speak too much

080.) Hobbies?

horse riding, chatting on msn, sticking stuff on my wall

081.) Favorite Ice Cream?

vanilla

082.) Favorite perfume for guys?

lynx

083.) For girls?

ralph

084.) Favorite holiday?

chrissy - pressies

085.) Have you ever played strip poker?

modified versions

086.) Are you ever sarcastic?

dah

087.) Do you like divulging all these secrets to all these people?

secrets?

088.) Make one person understand one thing, what would it be?

that underneath it all i'm really a supermodel with an IQ of 250 and must be treated with respect

089.) If you could tell one person one thing, what would it be?

ah, thats only for me to know

090.) Why don't you?

cos, well .. just .. er

091.) Who do you consider your first crush?

eek if i said is name everyone would tease me forever and ever

092.) If you don't answer the question above, I shall condemn you!

im scared

093.) Does anyone have a crush on you?

i doubt it

094.) Who is your favorite member of your immediate family?

all of em sept the sister

095.) Who is your favorite member of your extended family?

i like catherine. too young to really be annoying

096.) What college do you want to go to?

melbourne uni

097.) What do you want to major in?

maths

098.) What's the best email you've ever gotten?

i've gotten some good forwards

099.) Should guys hold doors open for girls regardless of location?

we can open our own doors

100.) Why or why not?

we aren't that pathetic

101.) Does a good car impress you?

yeah, i'm very shallow

102.) What's the nicest thing anyone's ever said about you?

that i'm gorgeous. i hit them cos i think they were teasing me, hehe

103.) What is your biggest pet peeve?

eh?

104.) What do you look for in the opposite sex?

looks for sure, but also big cosy jumpers and sweetness

105.) Where does your family come from?

germany, britain

106.) Do you wish you were older?

sometimes

107.) Do you wish you were younger?

nah

108.) Can you sing?

to myself

109.) Do you wish you could?

yep

110.) Best song in the world that can never be improved on?

tribute - tenacious d

111.) First thing you notice about somebody of the opposite sex?

if they are wearing a cosy jumper or not

112.) Longest phone conversation you've ever had?

4 hours

113.) When was your last kiss?

1 month. poor me

114.) Do you want to kiss anybody right now?

not really

115.) Have you ever liked one of your friends of the opposite sex?

ya

115.) If so, what is their name?

******

116.) Which friend do you have most in common with?
kath - we're lazy, like to sleep and hate many things

117.) Which friend do you talk to the most on the phone?

anne

118.) Name a friend that you can say or do anything around?

kath, stevie, jane

119.) Name your flirtiest friend?

andrea possibly

120.) Fave place to go to have peace and quiet?

my room

121.) Fave Disney character?

kovu

122.) Fave smell?

burnt marshmellow

123.) Guys: Speedo's or board shorts?

boardies

124.) Girls: bikinis or one pieces?

bikinis

125.) What's your lucky number?

3

126.) Do you believe in angels?

not really, i beleive in spirits tho

127.) Would you sleep with anybody if you were paid a million dollars?

not anybody

128.) Do you want to get married when you are older?

yeah

129.) Do you have anybody in mind right now that you want to marry?

nope

130.) Would you ever name your child after anybody you know?

maybe

131.) If so, what would you name him/her?

i wanna name my kid nikita, regardless of sex. lol

132.) Would you want to send this survey to your crush?

noo

133.) Would you take a bullet for any of your friends?

well, if it was sitting on the table and I took it and put it in my pocket, sure.

134.) What kind of person do you consider yourself?

trapped

alrighty then

2002-06-12T11:15:32Z

this shall be a very long post. be warned

i've started this new 'program' thingy where i write down everything i eat for a week, and kathryn does it aswell, then we get together on sunday and overview then feel extremely guilty, starve ourselves for a month and spend three hours a day on a treadmill. i'm hoping for some good results.

i had horse studies today, went to miranda riding school to do it. the teacher there is so .. whats the word .. blank? she doesn't seem to have much of a personality and it's just so boring to be around her .. sigh .. she's more of a horse person i suppose. anyway, we spent most of the morning with the farrier who was quite funny. kept commenting how horses were real 'shit stirrers' and 'seasonal bitches'. then we sat on the floor for 1 and a half hours straight watching the teacher clip her horse. very uninteresting. almost everyone in the class has a horse, i feel so deprived. i just sit there listening to them talk about what shows they went to on the weekend or their new saddles or how cute their horses are. very depressing. i need a horse, not want; need. and for gods sakes i don't know why dad won't just buy me one! not as if he can't afford it.
moving on. i'm not going to america anymore. mainly because of these stupid braces i'm getting, and also because of v.c.e. stupid school, why does it have to be so time consuming. and boring. and hard.

i'm working 12-4 on saturday and 8-12 on sunday. this is a problem. i will be out at urban vibes until say .. 1am , get home at 2am sleep for 4 hours then work for 4 hours. can't be good for me .. but oh well, i need the money. i'm in debt $70!! argh how did i let it come to owing my friends money. i'm such a bum .. oh dear i shouldn't say that anymore, my little friend jasmine (3yrs old) walked in before and tapped me on the shoulder and pronounced 'amy, your a bum!' cute, but i don't think her mother will be pleased.
last weekend (5 day weekend for me, thursday-sick, monday and friday- no school) i went to metung and dragged kathryn along with me. she was seasick after about half an hour. poor thing. dad took his new lady friend and i really don't think she was too impressed .. well i don't know but she seemed a bit sour the whole time. eep i shouldn't say that, shouldn't be such a bitch. anyway the weekend was splendin, we camped on shore (but had to continuously wade through water which was colder than ice to get to the boats). there was no rain or thunderstorms as the weather forcats predicted either! *cheers*. one eventful night we were walking to the beach through the bush with no torch and no moonlight, our only giudance was the fence and it was pitch black. kath and i were in the lead, scared shitless, with the 7 twelve year olds huddled behind us. we got about halfway when this HUGE black shadow bounded across the path and into the fence. it was the most scariest moment of my life. kath and i turned, screamed and ran. we couldn't see and the others didn't know what had happened, only that me and kath were running and shreiking 'theres a wolf, theres a fox, theres a murderer in the bushes!!!'. they all screamed, pissed themselves and we all sprinted back to camp although we didn't really know the way so we ended up running into tree's and injuring ourselves. it was halarious now i think about it .. well it turned out to be a kangaroo .. not very terrifying i know, but still. oh and on the last day i had vowed to seek revenge on ashley, one of the 12y/o boys, so me and kath hooked the tent poles together until they were abut 6 meters high, put ashleys hat on top and hooked it onto the highest branch possible. then when they returned from the beach i pointed out that there was a strange bird in the tree. very funny. i also drew on two of the boys with black permanent markers, giving them huge eyebrows and moustaches. you had to be there .. and kath n me read all 4 magazines and ate all $30 worth of lollies and junk food. i feel fat
boy i babble alot, it all sounds like crap but when it happened it was interesting, i swear!
yesterday i took the dog for a walk, and being the unco person i am and being the crazy dog she is, i ended up face down on the ground, screaming in pain with blood running down my hands and knee's and trying desperatly to hold onto the leach with what seemed like broken wrists. well it wasn't that serious, i have huge grazes and bruises now but thats all .. still, i missed out on volleyball tonight (our team lost again, did i mention we suck?) so i think some puppy obedience training is in order. will have to look into that.
quote of the day: heres your chocolate, now don't grizzle (jasmine) ..

vaya cogerse
(my new motto, means sumthing very mean in spanish)

@ school

2002-06-11T00:19:58Z

in maths at the moment but the teacher isn't here *cheers* .. and today finishes @ 12.30! what a wonderful day .. have been discussing what to do this weekend with natalie all lesson. decided to go to urban vibes on saturday nite and work the rest of the weekend ... sigh .. i've been debating with myself whether to quit or not. there's a job opening at wendy's in southland which is right near my house whereas mc donalds where i work now is an hour away - train and tram. theres heaps or pro's to wendy's but they pay $2 an hour less!! i think i'll get some training in the cafe at maccas and then quit at the end of the year. we shall see.
i've also debating what colour to do my hair. i'm cutting out pics of those i like and hopefully i can take it to the hairdressers and they will work their magic .. all this after the colour i have in now washes out. hopefully the hairdresser won't screw my hair up .. but that's a risk i'll take i guess. i just won't pay them if they do a shitty job.

there's the bell, adios

yawn

2002-05-16T13:57:11Z

not going to school tomorrow. muahaha. why not? well .. because i don't want to really. mother dearest said i could stay home if i cleaned the bathroom, i think this is a fair compromise. alright i've been thinking about this exchange to america. my first concern now is the orthadontist. if i get braces this year *shriek* then i might not be able to go overseas, unless i want to go to a orthodontist over there, which would be quite a hassle ... also with vce i realllyyy don't want to do year 11 when i come back, i'd be behind all my friends. when they're out of school i'd still be in year 12! this to me, is utterly terrifying and i want to avoid it if i can. this is so complicated ... grr maybe i'll only go for a few months, damnit.
anyway, i'm getting my photos back tomorrow. i shall have 60 photos to stick up on my wall as i wish, can't wait. i think my wall is going ot fall down sometime soon with all the things i stick up on it.

-> note to self. water your plant, or it will die. feed your rat, or it will die. check to see if the mouse and budgie are still alive, then feed or they will die

nah i'm not that mean ... still i think i've been neglecting my pets lately, too much time on this friggen internet

ok this entire post has been babble, for anyone who reads this, i apologise

oh the pain

2002-05-15T12:39:23Z

i got bitten by a horse today! not a friendly nip but a full on painful bite. i was informed the horse liked to nibble on things, so i kindly offered my sleeve and as he was happily munching away he happened to grab a handful of my hand in his mouth. i guess its my fault .. in a way. so at the moment i am immobile in the right hand; i am typing this with my left. how annoying ... tomorrow is open day at the school and im a tour guide. school finishes at 6pm!!! then i have two assignments due in the next day .. how i cope i have no idea

back again

2002-05-14T12:44:25Z

finished uploading some pictures i made this afternoon that i'm rather proud of. heres a mini version of one of them

yeah i know the verse is nonsence, but somehow nonsence makes more sence to me than anything .. complicated .. anyway there are more of my wonderful artworks at my website

peace out

well doctor .. i was just trying to lie down

2002-05-14T12:34:51Z

did you know that an average of 400,000 americans manage to get themselves injured by their bedding each year! so by the time you finish reading this, one poor american has wounded themselves by their blanket. i find this astonishing, if not hilarious. next year i'll be living in america for about 6 months, and am wondering if i should be excited or terrified. i'll just make sure i take my own pillow.